The funny thing about me

[moderndayEsther]

Okay... to some I may be weird or different, but that's alright-I am His.
God has blessed me with the understanding of what He expects of marriage--a ministry.  However, I am the person that really does not want to get married.  I would love to be single in the Lord--I just think it is so cool!  Anyways, people tell me things like you would make a good pastor's wife, etc.  I'm like 'Oh Jesus'!  My desire has come to this--I desire the DIVINE or PERFECT will of God, who desires the very best for me, therefore, whatsoever He desires for me is what I desire--I thank God for bringing me to this place of peace.  I will admit though I had to be ridden of my flesh-motive for not wanting to marry--"I don't need a man, I can do very well all by myself!"  So, now I am surrendered and desire God's perfect will, even if that includes me getting married someday  (I'll be a bit terrified at first, but I can do all things through Christ that strengthenth me inlcuding getting over the intial shock )  When it comes to attraction to guys, I usually end up liking their stand in Christ to the point where I don't want to be with them or have a relationship with them, but I want the spirit of humility, joy, selflessness, boldness, confidence, etc that God has placed in them.  I just want to be about my  Father's business too!  I want to be used by God and be a blessing.  I would like to have godly friendships with more of my brothers-in-Christ, but nothing beyond that.  I just want to be a blessing and be blessed.  Thanks for reading and God bless.

[Gracious]

Hello MDE...what's up my sista'?

Personally, I see not one "ting" wrong or wierd about your thinking...here's why:

Paul's Epistle of Encouragement to his beloved Phillipi

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"...6Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
7and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus....
11Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content:
12I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
13I can do all things through Christ[1] who strengthens me..."

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I didn't start receiving and appreciating God's character (into my life)...  until I began breaking away from the FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real  ) FACTOR and began TRUSTING GOD enough to take HIM at HIS WORD...to step out on faith and PROVE  HIM  over & over...He's never failed me yet!!!

Then I relaxed...and started following the Apostle Paul's lead... living daily with much more of a spiritual contentment. When I stopped stressing about what others told me was lacking in my life (you should be here & doing that, at this point in your life); the voice speaking to my spirit-man changed and became "Sweeter" and that is the voice, I follow!!!

MDE, you call this "thing" about you funny...to me YOU are very WISE!!!

Thanks and GOD bless you too,

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[pressingon]

I agree with Gracious.  I think you are definately on the right track.  As single Christians we are able to be totally committed to God.

1 Corinthians 7:32-35
But I want you to be free from concern. One who is unmarried is concerned about the things of the Lord, how he may please the Lord; but one who is married is concerned about the things of the world, how he may please his wife, and his interests are divided. The woman who is unmarried, and the virgin, is concerned about the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and spirit; but one who is married is concerned about the things of the world, how she may please her husband.  This I say for your own benefit; not to put a restraint upon you, but to promote what is appropriate and to secure undistracted devotion to the Lord.

moderndayEsther

I think more of us would be better off if we looked at things from your point of view.  I think you are experiencing what Paul was talking about in the scripture above.  You've definately encouraged me.  Stay in God's will, and Be Blessed.

[purity]

THAT'S IT!!!!!!!!

I desire the DIVINE or PERFECT will of God, who desires the very best for me, therefore, whatsoever He desires for me is what I desire--I

O how much more powerful we would be as women if we all had that type of focus in the Lord and his desires for us!

I pray that God would use you to reach out to young women and to share with them! You go Girl! You are a blessing to all!

Purity