What's a heart broken PK to do???

[lenaj]

So today I forced to accept the fact my father the pastor is a cheater!

I found out that he is and has been cheating on my mother with a women from the congragation, and I'm totaly heartbroken.

He tried to leave me a vm today and I heard her voice in the background, and he was not at church, he is in a different state on vacation with her. A vacation he lied and said he didn't know if he was still going on. He just left town and didn't even let me know. I called him back and told him that I hoped he had a good time where ever he was, and with whoever he was with. I told him I heard her voice and asked him how could he do this to me. How could he treat us this way. I was too overcome with emotion so I just hung up, and he never called me back.

I have cried all day. So I wrote him a letter to explain how hurt I am. How I don't understand how he can get up every Sunday and preach knowing what he is doing. I let him know that because of this I have a hard time believing that I will ever have a husband to love me.

Am I wrong for this? Or do you think I need to tell him how I feel?