Hi Deepwaters:
I posted It Had to Happen, a few weeks ago. Well, while my husband and I were separated I kept a journal regarding what I was going through. Reading back over my journal - I found this and wanted to share with you.
A HUG FROM GOD
January 7, 2005
Last night I was watching this movie - Under the Tuscan Sun. It's about the changes this woman goes through after her divorce. She buys this big villa in Italy and later wonders why she bought a house that's contrary to her life. She wants a wedding, a family and someone to cook for. Well, as in movies - she gets all of this and finds love again. At the end of the movie I get teary eyed and think that's what I want - I want to be happy. Not that I want to go through a divorce - but I want to be happy. Then I say to myself I'm not gonna cry - I haven't cried in over a week.
So I turn off all the lights and go to bed - lying with my back to the door. I'm in that state of sleep where you are just drifting off - semi-conscious. I actually feel someone come in my room and I'm thinking I must have been crying out loud. As I think about it now - I think I faintly heard my name. I feel someone get on my bed and I thinking it's my son or my sister. Then, I feel them lay right behind me (close - I could feel them on my back) and put their arm around me. I opened my eyes - I didn't see anyone and I couldn't move for a minute.
When I could move - I sat up looked around - still didn't see anyone. I turned the lights on and thought I just got a hug from God. I must admit it was scary at first - but as I thought about it - WOW - what an experience. It was awesome. How can you not love HIM. HE is wonderful.
Shorty